When I close my eyes, you’re there every time,
The realisation that I failed you and I’m the one to blame.
How I hate myself for the hell I put you through,
Now I see what leaving did to you.
Who am I without regret?
And how do I correct the mistakes I’ve made?
What will it take to break this cycle of self-decay?
Selfish and I proved it I left you in need and I knew it.
And I can’t bring myself to talk about it, how I failed (how I failed) How I never looked back.
How I took the easy escape from what we had.
Deep down I know I was the one setting myself up to fall (deep down I know)
My answers are questions,
Lead me through my mental streams.
A seeded lie, and faults are mine,
Counting candles I decline.
Saluting my own mind,
It's a fight to find my sovereignty.
Choosing to find a way born often here.
I wade through the fiction, I find that I am alive.
I hope somehow these words make their way back to you.
Know that I always cared, that I’m still thinking of you.
Where do I turn when I can’t turn back to you?
Where do I stand if it’s not next to you?